Tulis~

Menulis.

Untuk apa
Pada siapa
Bila perlunya
Bagaimana hasilnya

Tanya pada diri
Setelah lama menyepi

p/s:
1. Bosan
2. Nak travel please. Jepun saya datang! Ensyaallah.

Trauma and Emergency Elective #4 + Medical Posting~

Bismillah.

*Elective time during medical student*

"Dr, em kami nak tag dengan doktor boleh?"
"Oh ok. No problem."
"Jom ambil darah new patient."

Unfortunately, the veins were not that obvious.

*scratching head*

"Cuba rasa and tekan-tekan. Try to find the bouncy part."
"Tapi tak nampaaakkk..."
"Memanglaaa... Tak semua vein nampak maa.. Kalau semua vein macam yours and I senanglaa.."

*sengih*

Ending up he's taking the blood.

"Balik, pejam mata, feel your own vein. Remember the feeling."

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Now, I'm very thankful to Dr K for the teaching.
Just feel the bouncy thingy and poke!
No need to see the vein. ^_^

Making my time for taking blood shorter!
Alhamdulillah~
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Dear, medical posting.

You're interesting with knowledge.
and I really learn a lot from you.

Manage patients and decide the proper management
Do work faster and know the priority
Do some procedures
You teach me all of that.

But you give me too much workload
which I'm thinking twice to have
further relationship with you.

Honestly, I enjoyed being with you.
Even though at first I just want to give you up
Especially when you put me on too much workload
without off for a month. -.-"

Hoping we can enjoy the left moment together happily!
Medical posting, discharge me safely please!
^_^

Bukan Kita~

Bismillah~

Bukan kita yang memilih takdir
Takdirlah yang memilih kita

Bagaimanapun,
takdir bagaikan angin
bagi seorang pemanah

Kita selalu harus mencoba
untuk membidik dan melesatkannya
Di saat yang paling tepat

-Salahuddin al-Ayyubi-

Bila terbaca ini, teringat ada orang pernah tanya,
"Menyesal tak jadi doktor?"

*senyum*

Teruskan perjuangan! Yosh!

Group of mine in Obs Gyne posting!~

Alhmdulillah, posting Obs gyne hampir tamat.
Banyak sebenarnya scenes menarik.
Cuma tak sempat dilakarkan di sini.

Lepas ni medical! Doakan!

Medical Mission in Sabah~

Bismillah.

Salam, guys!

First, I'll update some story of me and then I'll write a little bit about the topic written above.

I have done my SPA interview on the 3rd Sept. It's a very unprepared interview. But it's running smoothly as the interviewers were very benign and cool. =p About 2 hours later, all of us got our confirmation letter as a medical officer UD41. So now, we are waiting for the placement and PTM course. I'm not sure it'll be either in October or December. The faster the better. But still I'm not prepared yet. -.-"
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On 13/9 -16/9 I have been on a medical mission in Sabah. It's organised under HALUAN (one of the NGOs) collaboration with Ministry of Rural and Regional Development.

Well I'm not intended to write a report. So I'll juz tell you what I've got.

Kg. Semuning

I was actually given a task for preparing and arranging the medications. But since there is someone which I thought would do better than me, I left that part to him (he's Medical Assistant) solely and helped the doctors taking the immunization history. Well, of course the immunization program for every country could be different. And for Jordan and Malaysia there's a little bit different. So at first, I was quite slow in taking the history. Actually there's some mistakes I have done in ticking the immunization paper =p But doctors there corrected it. After a few patients, I became faster. Well as people said, practice makes perfect.

The result, only a few of parents were quite educated about vaccination. Some of them never had their children vaccinated. Well, who's responsible for making this community aware about the importance of vaccination? Hmmm...
Also, some of them I can't understand their language and of course they can't understand me. Sometimes I have to change my slang to Sabahans' to make them understand what I'm talking. This I was able to do after listening many times to how they speak. But of course not that fluent.

Adult session was after the children session which also after we had our lunch and zohr prayer. For this session I was asked to measure the patients' blood pressure which is really easy because we used the digital sphygmomanometer. Actually the manual one is more accurate. And I was hoping to practice the manual one. But maybe it's easier to carry and handle they use the digital one. So I just go with the flow. Most of them have normal blood pressure. Only one or two were taking high blood pressure meds.

Finished my task, I went to the medications table to see if there's anything to help. And it's a mess there! Why? Because too many people were claiming for their meds prescription and only a person there distributing.  I felt guilty because actually my post was there helping to distribute the meds. It seemed easy. But actually for someone who've never been learn pharmacology can't give a help. At first, when I try to help me too was blurred with the doctors' writings and got confused with some abbreviations used. Also there's some meds written with generic name and i didn't know what was it. So, I asked a lot to the Medical Assistant who had been in charge for the meds since the morning. From him, I learnt the drugs name and confirmed the abbs used. Thanks to him.

After having our energy extracted, we have been fed with sumptuous seafood as our dinner. Also we got ourselves refresh and rest in a 3 to 5 star resort. (I don't know how many star because we are sponsored. =p)

Kg. Tagupi

Our team and some of the volunteers at Kg Tagupi

The next day, we offed to Kg. Tagupi. It took about 2 hours from the resort. The road there is not fully tarred. So we have about half an hour the journey of riding a horse in a car. =p

Here, I put myself in medications room with the MA as yesterday he asked me to help distributing meds for this day. We started with arranging the meds on the tables so that it's easier for us to find and give them to people.

In the morning, the patients who came for the prescription were not too many. We could handle it perfectly i guess. We even have some chat about his work which he used to work the longest in emergency but now he's in Clinic 1 Malaysia. Since then I just knew that there's no doctors in that clinic. MAs are doctors there. If there's anything complex that they can't handle then they will refer the patients to Klinik Kesihatan.

But starting about 4 o'clock, the surroundings in the room started to be crowded as people worried they won't had a chance to have their meds because we would wrap up at 5. At that time I was totally busy. I mean both of us. I tried to be fair as I tried to serve for who came first. But then, I can't even differentiate because they are not in queue anymore.

At that time, there's a woman who wanted meds but she didn't see the doctor yet. So no prescription. I told her to see the doctor first but then the MA asked me to just give the meds as he afraid that the doctors had too many patients. Also the meds she wanted were (over the counter) OTC.

"Just give the meds to them especially if what they wanted were just for scabies, sinusitis and muscle sore," he said.
"Okay then," I nodded.

Finished my work, I feel like half of my energy was totally lost. Sitting in front of a plate of donut, a doctor said,

"Penat? Ini belum HO lagi. Lebih kurang lah ni kerja macam ni. Penatnya macam HO. Cuma exclude scolding ja.."
Me: Smiling without energy. =p Pheww!

I was really amazed with one of the volunteers there. She's actually from Perlis. She got married with a man from this area and lived there. I'm amazed because she's willing to live there teaching the children even though the facilities were very lacking. Sometimes there's shortage of electricity. Their main source of water's the river. And the most thing that I can't accept that they use the river as their wastage landfill. Maybe because there'll be no one who'll come and take the garbage if they gather it. But I think it's better to burn or bury it. Hoping for better awareness for them in the future.

Btw, here was the first time for me to see bakau tree in front of my eyes. Before this, I only saw them in geography book during year 3 of secondary school i guess. =p

If you could see the root like crags at the back, then that's the root of bakau tree!

Next day, we only had a few hours to shop before our flight to Kuala Lumpur. So my sister and I just do window shopping and done while others are shopping till drop. =p It's because a few weeks before my father went to sabah too and bought some dried fish and squid and some traditional snacks.

p/s 1: Yeay! Done the writings after being postponed many times. =p
p/s 2: Yesterday got a pic with the famous author and got his autograph! Hehe..
p/s 3: Suggested movie: The Flu.

Kenangan~

Bismillah..

Alhamdulillah 3x. Hari ini hari terakhir exam final kami student medic 4th year. Setelah berhempas pulas melawan rasa malas dan tensi untuk study sebab yang lain-lain dah habis exam. Tinggal kami yang terakhir menamatkan semester dengan hanya 6 hari cuti. Yang lain-lain 2 minggu kottttt... =_=" Tak pe lah. Mungkin ini rezeki kami untuk pergi majlis graduasi para seniors. 

Saya akui, ini adalah kali pertama saya pergi majlis graduasi di sini walaupun dah 4 tahun di sini. Tahu sebab apa? Sebab tiap kali cuti, mesti cuti panjang. Maka, saya keluar Jordan dan terlepaslah majlis grad sebelum-sebelum ini. Di Jordan, atau lebih spesifik JUST, majlis grad ini dibuat di stadium. Peliklah sikit sebenarnya. =P Tapi tak pa. Kita layan ja.

Mereka dah lepas satu tahap. Dan akan ke tahap seterusnya. Yang lagi up pastinya. Yang susahnya bertambah. Yang jerihnya perlu lebih. 

Lega, suka, bahagia akan terselit antara tahap-tahap itu. Terutama bila tahap itu tahap yang mana kita rasa amat payah dalam masa melaluinya.

p/s: Ini tulisan dalam draft masa saya 4th year. Dan di 'published' after my graduation setelah mengorek drafts yang ada. Tersenyum dan terasa mahu kongsi. =)

Happy Eid!~

Bismillah..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri!
Kollo 3aam w entom bel 5eir!
Happy Eid everyone!

Okay, that's us on the morning eid. =p

p/s: Sorry for delaying the story of part 4. Maybe I'll finish them tonight or tomorrow or the day after tomorrow? =p

Malaysia's First Post After BFG~

Bismillah..

I hate the very slow WiFi here. And I'm already missing my ex-house Jordan WiFi. 

It's too slow which my story of Jordan stuck at part 2. Sorry readers. But still I'll try to finish them even though if it's only post with pics. =p Actually the slowest part which is the most annoying one is uploading the pics.. -.-"

p/s 1: Pray for Ghazzah and my condolences to MH17.

p/s 2: Selamat menjalani hari-hari akhir Ramadhan and Salam eidul fitri! ^_^

Random Post!~

Bismillah~

It's such a loooonnggg time this blog has been ignored by the owner.
And actually this time I just want to write my random thinking.
Because if I don't then I don't know when will I write again.
It's not that I don't have any story to tell but it's just myself  who's having mood swing of writing plus the feeling of wanting to spend time more on studying which I doubt. -.-"

Ok. I have just come across this picture while taking break for couple of minutes from study.

Did anyone see anything other than the lake and the mountain?

Sure most of us will find nothing.

But, if i say did anyone see the rainbow in this picture?
Then, most of us will see it.

This reminds me the sentence which always has been used by doctors in clinics;
"You will see what you want to find."
The doctors will use this sentence when we don't see the lesion in x-rays or CT scan which means we don't know what we want to find. *herherher*

Ok. I have to get back on track. *study mode activated*. Or else I will not see what should I find. =p

p/s 1: Ramadhan Kareem everyone. It's never too late to wish. =p Let's try to get the gift: Lailatul Qadr in this last 8 days.
p/s 2: Should I close this blog? Hmm.. Hmm..
p/s 3: Keep praying for our brothers and sisters in Egypt, Syria, Palestine and others!
p/s 3: Last, Happy eidul fitri in advanced! I don't think I'll update this blog in the meantime because I'll have exams after 'eid! ouhh.. Pray for me~

Kebaboooomm!!

Bismillah..

Maaf dan pendam.

Bezanya..

Maaf: tiada ungkit lagi selepas itu. Tidak timbul lagi dalam hati dulu dia buat begini dan begitu.

Pendam pula akan tiba satu waktu di mana perasaan marah sampai ke tahap maksima yang kemudian meletup!

Kita yang mana satu?

Lebih baik luah dan memaafkan

daripada simpan, pendam dan meletup.

Yang terbaik, tahan, lupa, dan memaafkan.

Tapi tak ramai mampu buat yang terbaik.

Terkadang, sangka kita, kita sedang memaafkan. Konon sedang melakukan yang terbaik.

Sedangkan kita memendam, mengumpul, menunggu waktu untuk meletup.

Selamat koreksi!~

p/s 1: Lama sangat tak menulis di sini. Tulisan ini hasil tulis padam tulis padam dari tadi. Macam dah hilang skill ok. -.-"

p/s 2: Saya rindu UK. Mungkin bukan sebab tempatnya. Tapi sebab orang-orang yang saya jumpa. Eh tapi Scotland sangat cantik ok!

p/s 3: Cuti bulan 6 nampak gaya for the first time saya bakal bertapa di Irbid. Harapnya, bakal buat perkara berfaedah lah ya.

p/s 4: Terus mendoakan mereka yg sedang berjuang untuk nyawa dan hidup.

p/s 5: Nah! Hadiah dari UK sikit. =)

~Scotland~

~Scotland lagi~

Kambing biri-biri Scotland. 

Putih kan warna bulu dia. Tak macam kambing biri-biri Jordan. 

Depa mandikan kambing tu ke camna?

Eh? =p ~Loch Ness~

Between two Bridges~

Bismillah.

"If you have to choose between minor motor and sensory defects, which one would you sacrifice?
For example between ulnar nerve which supports minor muscles of little and ring fingers and median nerve which gives sensation to the part of our hands. which one will you choose to sacrifice?"

"Sensory"
"Sensory"
"Ulnar"
"Median"

"The answer is ulnar. You know why? Because sensory loss means functionless. No function. So why should we preserve the non-function fingers? Also it could get injured and the patient doesn't notice it which could lead to infection and difficult healing and lastly still we have to do amputation."

[Morning Report, King Abdullah University Hospital]

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn -David Russell

p/s 1: I just love the new song from Raef as it comes across just in time. =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=y-Ka9kra8jY

p/s 2: Err.. Happy new year people! Even though January is almost over still it's never too late because we are still in that new year~ =p

p/s 3: Lacrimal glands overstimulate too easily this January. Hehs~

Post Terakhir 2012~

Bismillah.

Hampir 2 bulan tak update blog. Tiap kali tulis, tak habis dan akhirnya terperuk dalam draft. -.-'

Kenapa ya sampai 2 bulan tak update dan tak ada rasa nak update pun?

Mungkin sebab bukan semua benda yang kita rasa boleh digambarkan dengan tulisan
Mungkin sebab tak semua kisah yang kita tahu boleh dicerita kepada umum
Mungkin sebab ada waktu perasaan tak dapat ditulis dengan baik
Mungkin sebab ada rasa tak perlu untuk dikisahkan untuk bacaan umum

Dan mungkin sebab-sebab ini jugalah bila imbas sekali lalu, 
saya tak berapa intabeh apa yang ada pada 2012 saya
yang sebenarnya sangat banyak mendidik jiwa, hati dan perasaan saya.

Terima kasih kepada awak yang terlibat dalam hidup saya
sama ada secara langsung atau tidak langsung.
Pasti ada sesuatu yang saya dapat.
Cuma saya dan awak sedar atau tidak.
Sebab Allah tak susun pertemuan kita untuk sia-sia.

Sekian, post terakhir untuk 2012~

Doakan tahun 2013 bakal kita warnai dengan warna yang lebih baik. En syaa Allah. ^_^

Selamat pergi 2012 saya dan semua!~

p/s 1: Kalau post ni keluar tarikh 2013, itu mungkin tarikh Malaysia. Saya taip post ni di Jordan yang masih 2012. So, just assume it's still 2012. =p

p/s 2: Umur utk 2013 = 23. Perasaan? Hmm...

p/s 3: Doakan saya. Doakan kita. Doakan semua.

Lukisan Pahit 2~

Bismillah..

Setelah tamat tempoh untuk melukis, pelukis terakhir bersiap sedia untuk mempersembahkan lukisannya kepada raja yang beberapa hari lepas telah menamatkan riwayat teman-teman sekerjanya.

'Berserah. Aku sudah lakukan yang terbaik. Moga raja terima lukisanku ini.'


Lalu lukisan pelukis ketiga dipersembahkan kepada raja.

Sang raja mengangguk-angguk sambil tersenyum puas tatkala perhatiannya diberi kepada lukisan tersebut. Dirinya dilukis sedang menaiki kuda dalam keadaan sedang memanah. Lalu, tempang baginda serta sebelah matanya yang buta dapat disembunyikan. Tiada munafiq. Tiada penghinaan.

Maka, kerana berpuas hati baginda raja melantik pelukis terakhir sebagai pelukis diraja dan dianugerahkan berbagai set cat dan berus lukisan yang mahal-mahal serta diberi rumah mewah berdekatan istana raja.

TAMMAT

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Lukisan yang pahit menjadi manis bilamana pelukisnya hebat menambah rasa.

Seperti juga kebenaran. Kebenaran itu seperti ubat yang pahit. 


Andai penyampainya tidak cuba untuk memaniskannya, maka pendengarnya akan menjadi seperti raja. Lalu, sang pendengar tak akan dapat merasa manisnya ubat yang asalnya pahit.

Serulah (manusia) kepada jalan Tuhan-mu dengan hikmah dan pelajaran yang baik dan bantahlah mereka dengan cara yang baik. Sesungguhnya Tuhanmu Dialah yang lebih mengetahui tentang siapa yang tersesat dari jalan-Nya dan Dialah yang lebih mengetahui orang-orang yang mendapat petunjuk. [An-Nahl: 125]

 Jom, latih otak jadi kreatif dan inovatif untuk melazatkan ubat yang pahit! ^_^

p/s 1: Alhamdulillah, banyak saya belajar dari mereka hari ini. =)

p/s 2: I think i'm the person who have to be busy to be arranged in my daily life.

Kalau tak, memang suka bertangguh sebab rasa macam masa banyak. @_@

p/s 3: Oh, Hanady's~ =p
p/s 4: Banyaknyaaa dapat jemputan kahwin!

Spread Your Love~

Bismillah..

Tema PINTAR untuk bulan Mac: Sebarkan sayangmu. Or spread your love.

If we often talk about love, it won't be special anymore.
But if we never talk, the love may go away.

Spread your love. But don't talk too often. Just do more.

Post-OSCE Internal Medicine Post~

Bismillah..

Nak update. Tp kepala kosong. Camna?

Tetiba rasa nak merapu.

Teddy bear kat atas ni patutnya nama dia bukan Hug Me.
Nama dia ptutnya,
Inspect Me
Palpate Me
Percuss Me
Auscultate Me

Hadiah daripada Kak Lina. First time dapat Teddy untuk birthday gift masa umur 20 tahun. Guna sungguh untuk latihan OSCE. ^_^

Comment for OSCE exam for internal medicine, lack of practice. I have to put more effort. 3ala kulli 7al al7amdulillah. Moga Doctors lembut hati dalam memberi markah.

Surgery is coming soon.... let's be ready for the malignant doctorssss!~

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“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, 
but by the moments that take our breath away”

I love this quote very much. It's like my 22nd birthday gift! Or actually it's more like a reminder towards death..

I always afraid of future. But I know the future will come nevertheless how much it scared me.
So, dear myself, please endure the feelings, create your future and have faith in HIM! Ensyaallah 5eir, biznillah.. =)

Pray for me!

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p/s 1: Merapu makan kerapu sungguh.

p/s 2: Doakan untuk Syria! Mereka jihad fizik. Kita jihad ruhi. Moga Allah bantu. Moga Allah pandu.

p/s 3: Abah, Happy 51st Birthday!

p/s 4: Terima kasih untuk ucapan dan doa dari anda semua buat saya. Moga Allah maqbulkan. Moga malaikat meng'ameen'kan.

22:5

Bismillah..

Wahai umat manusia, sekiranya kamu menaruh syak (ragu-ragu) tentang kebangkitan makhluk (hidup semula pada hari kiamat), maka (perhatilah kepada tingkatan kejadian manusia) kerana sebenarnya Kami telah menciptakan kamu dari tanah, kemudian dari setitik air benih, kemudian dari sebuku darah beku, kemudian dari seketul daging yang disempurnakan kejadiannya dan yang tidak disempurnakan; (Kami jadikan secara yang demikian) kerana Kami hendak menerangkan kepada kamu (kekuasaan Kami); dan Kami pula menetapkan dalam kandungan rahim (ibu yang mengandung itu) apa yang Kami rancangkan hingga ke suatu masa yang ditentukan lahirnya; kemudian Kami mengeluarkan kamu berupa kanak-kanak; kemudian (kamu dipelihara) hingga sampai ke peringkat umur dewasa; dan (dalam pada itu) ada di antara kamu yang dimatikan (semasa kecil atau semasa dewasa) dan ada pula yang dilanjutkan umurnya ke peringkat tua nyanyuk sehingga ia tidak mengetahui lagi akan sesuatu yang telah diketahuinya dahulu. Dan (ingatlah satu bukti lagi); Engkau melihat bumi itu kering, kemudian apabila Kami menurunkan hujan menimpanya, bergeraklah tanahnya (dengan tumbuh-tumbuhan yang merecup tumbuh), dan gembur membusutlah ia, serta ia pula menumbuhkan berjenis-jenis tanaman yang indah permai.

[22:5]

Sungguh. Suasana hospital membuatkan ayat ini berjalan sepintas lalu. Bermula dengan paeds dan bertukar ke internal medicine betul-betul mengikut aturan hidup. Kalau dulu berdepan dengan bayi-bayi sakit yang berjuang untuk kehidupan yang baru bermula, kini berdepan dengan orang-orang tua yang berjuang untuk kehidupan yang telah lama dirasa.

Manusia itu berada dalam dua. Hidup atau mati. Yang selalu diingat hanyalah hidup. Mati ramai terlupa. Atau sebenarnya melupakan [?] Kerana mati itu temannya sakit. Dan manusia itu membenci untuk sakit. Lalu mereka melupakan. Hingga mereka terlupa bahawa sakit itulah yang membentuk syukur pada nikmat sihat~

p/s 1: Sedang memendam rindu untuk berjalan dalam salji.

p/s 2: Mari membaca ECG Made Easy; membaca perjuangan jantung untuk berdegup memberi hidup dengan izin Dia.

Irbed: Sunyi dan Beku~

Bismillah..

Makin terasa kelengangan juga kebekuan Irbed. Pagi-pagi keluar rumah, tak nampak dah budak melayu beramai-ramai berjalan ke mujamma3 Syeikh Khalil. Orang arab lalu lalang macam pandang pelik. 'Ya, pak cik dan mak cik.. saya tak cuti.' =_=" Atau sebenarnya perasan sendiri [?]

Dalam kelas, dapat sms, dapat call dari juniors tanya pasal Spain. Balik rumah buka FB, status-status ramai yang berjalan. Buka inbox, juniors tanya pasal Spain. Buka blog cik Intan update gambar Korea. Oh, macam ini ke perasaan tengok orang dah merdeka diri sendiri kena hadap buku tebal-tebal untuk hadap doktor pagi esok [?] Hmmm.. layaaann..

Esok, 19 Jan.. bakal menyendiri. Boleh lah diet seminggu. =_="

Rumah kedua dari tingkat 10~

p/s: Yang pergi jalan tu, jangan lupa ole2 orang tak cuti ok. At least saya mahu doa anda masa musafir. =)

Simpul-simpul 2011~

Bismillah..

*Post ini lebih panjang daripada post-post yang lain.*

Akhir tahun. Selalunya orang bermuhasabah. Menanda target lama. Membuat target baru.

Tapi saya.. tak ingat bila kali terakhir saya simpulkan tahun itu. Atau sebenarnya, ini kali pertama [?]

Target dalam hidup, pasti semua ada. Cuma, mungkin certain people macam saya, jarang membuat muhasabah dan target pada akhir tahun. Rasa kurang sesuai mungkin. Entah. Selalunya, saya akan letak target bila saya mulakan sesuatu yang baru. Err.. maksud saya, pekerjaan yang baru. Kalau benda yang saya dah pernah buat, maka akan ada muhasabah. Apa yang perlu diteruskan. Apa yang perlu dibaiki. But if it is something new, then i'll look to others who have done it.

Juga terkadang bila saya kecewa. Sama ada, kecewa dengan hari.. Atau kecewa dengan diri.. Atau kecewa dengan manusia..

Oh. Em. Teringat sesuatu. Simpulan tahun sebenarnya saya akan muhasabah pada setiap 26 Februari~ ^_^
But not that specific. Maksudnya, tiadalah senaraikan satu per satu. Secara keseluruhan mungkin.

Well then, this year i'm going to try something new. 'Simpulan akhir tahun' maybe [?]

1. Kaki jejak Spain dan Italy

Dalam perancangan, sepatutnya ke Spain dan Morocco. Tapi, atas masalah dengan visa morocco maka bertukarlah arah ke Italy. Well i guess, this is the first time i lead a travel team. Sebelum ini, ikut orang. Pengalaman yang menarik sebenarnya. Dan pastilah belajar banyak benda. Not just about travel itself. Latihan kawalan emosi mungkin. ^^

2. Tulis puisi.

Ok, tak ingat kalau-kalau pernah tulis puisi atau sajak atau seangkatan dengannya sebelum ini. Baca dan komen pernah, Tapi tulis dan publish kalau tak silap baru tahun ini. Entah. Kadang-kadang rasa seronok main kata. Terutama bila tak boleh terjemah perasaan secara directly. Tapi yang pasti, saya masih tak bersedia kalau orang komen puisi-puisi tu. Especially kalau komen yang kritik. Haha.. Penakut kan? Takut kalau kritik nanti self-esteem untuk tulis makin jatuh. Maka tak tulis langsung. =_="

Ya, saya tahu. Kalau tiada orang kritik, yang salah tak dapat betulkan. Tapi saya memang macam tu. Takut dengan keputusan bila belum bersedia nak dengar. Tapi kalau kritik juga, tak adalah sampai mengamuk [?] Terima dengan pasrah~ =P

3. Kaki jejak tanah suci Makkah dan Madinah

Untuk ini memang waktu nak buat visa, saya ambil risiko yang agak tinggi dengan mengirim passport ke Malaysia melalui seorang senior. Tahu kenapa saya kata agak tinggi? Sebab waktu ini kekecohan reformasi Tunisia, Mesir dan Libya. Jordan.. sipi-sipi. Cuma tak tahu kenapa waktu itu, ada keyakinan yang nothing will happen in Jordan. Abah pula yang risau. Tapi bila abah tengok anak abah sangat firm dengan pendirian, maka abah pun yakin. Secara jujurnya, masa mula-mula yakin. Tapi bila Jordan ada sedikit bergolak, dan passport dah duduk di Malaysia hati mula risau. Alhamdulillah, aman tenteram sehingga kini. =)

Serius. Sekali pergi, pasti merindui. Rindu dengan ketenangan dan semangat ibadah di sana.

4. Balik Malaysia

Normal je balik Malaysia ni. Cumanya, tahun ini saya 'terbalik' dua kali. Haha.. Rezeki.. =D

5. Masuk clinical year

Alhamdulillah, selesai rotation paediatrics. Hmm.. saya tak pernah tulis pasal rotation ini kan? *senyum* Banyak benda sebenarnya. Tapi banyak waktu emosi tidak mengizinkan. Ok alasan. =P

Ok. Rasa nak coret sikit. Supaya nanti boleh baca semula masa depan-depan.

Pertama kali tengok vaginal delivery secara live. Seram sejuk jugalah. Terus teringat ummi waktu itu. Dalam masa yang sama memang speechless. No words can describe the feeling at that time. Seriously. Maha suci Allah..

Pertama kali tengok cesarean secara live. Yang ini, macam tak ada perasaan. Sebab dah tengok surgery banyak kali kat movies kah? Tapi bila tengok baby tu hypotonia macam agak excited. Ok, memang tak boleh blah kan perasaan excited dengan penyakit. Patutnya kesian lah. -.-'

Operation room in KAUH.

Sink for scrubbing before entering operation room 

[Bila tengok benda alah ni, dalam hati cakap, 

'Hmm lain dengan operation room kat Korea atau Jepun. 

Malaysia mesti lain juga.

Ok, kesan tengok movie 

Team Medical Dragon dan Surgeon Bong Dal Hee. =_="]

Hmm.. saya rasa menarik bila dengar Dr. Samah cakap, "When a baby does not acquire some of the development stage in a certain range of time, they will never acquire it."
Terfikir, dari kita kecil sampai besar, sunnatullahnya sama. Contoh, kalau waktu belajar ini, kita tak dapat nak bahagi masa untuk keluarga, tarbiyah dan sebagainya, waktu sudah kerja apatah lagi. Kesimpulannya, jangan asyik bernanti. Nanti memang akan ternanti-nanti. Haa.. =_="

6. Exam OSCE

Hmm pertama kali exam, dapat soalan yang agak killer lah juga. Tak pernah-pernah jumpa waktu ambil case ok. Tak pa lah. Hanya tinggal doa dan tawakkal. Yang pasti, CNS selalu berbuat horror. Masa pre-clinical, system yang paling tak score CNS lah. Both. CNS [central nervous system] dan PNS [peripheral nervous system] Memang nervous lah.

Ok. Habis. Target tahunan.. hmm *fikir pernah ada ke?* Ok.. pernah. Tiap tahun. Cuma ianya adalah secara separa sedar. Sebab selalu buat target secara sedar bila ada certain episodes in life. ^_^

p/s 1: Ahad ini masuk rotation baru. Internal Medicine. Doakan makin rajin membaca dan men'study'kan diri.
p/s 2: Tak banyak cuti tahun depan. =_="
p/s 3: Dah dapat lepas rindu dekat kopi JUST! =D
p/s 4: I Am Sam. One of the movies that must be watched. Daripada tengok Ombak Rindu, baik tengok ini. Oh. baru tengok Ombak Rindu sebenarnya. Mahu tahu tahap mana kejatuhan moralnya. Dan boleh saya katakan, agak dahsyat juga.

Awanan Putih~

Bismillah..

Pernah rasa tak mahu sentuh awan?
Pernah rasa tak mahu duduk atas awan?
Pernah rasa tak mahu tidur atas awan?
Kalau pernah, perasaan kita sama.
Ok, semua ini mimpi semata.

p/s 1 : Teringat cerita Goku pula cakap pasal awan. ^^"
p/s 2 : Salam Eidul Adha! Tak terlambat kan?
p/s 3 : Kena selak buku ni. Ok dah. Bai!~

Heavens of HIS creation~

Bismillah..

From veranda of Bayt Nusaibah, Irbed

Close-up

Did you see
The patterns I see
Did you feel
The harmony I feel
Of the God's creation
Full of amusement

When a deep breath taken
Tilt up till you see the heavens
Heavens of HIS creation

Did you see
The patterns I see
Blue printed sky overlaying high
Beaming bright stripe lining like turnpike
Myriad bulbous sprout of white grizzled cloud
Golden ashen lane on the horizon pane

Did you feel
The harmony I feel

When the air was wrapped by cold

You took my hands to hold

Warming them in your hand fold

While gazing at the sky of amazing world!

-Nima Hamid-

67:3

Bismillah..

Bayt Nusaibah, Irbed

Yang telah menciptakan tujuh langit berlapis-lapis. Kamu sekali-kali tidak melihat pada ciptaan Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah sesuatu yang tidak seimbang. Maka lihatlah berulang-ulang, adakah kamu lihat sesuatu yang tidak seimbang?

(67:3)

Bila kecewa dengan mereka, maka ingatlah mereka itu milik DIA jua~